A Fresh Start

Welp - I've never done this before.... I'm not sure how it's going to go. I know me, and I know what I need to do, and this requires major action. I'm going to make a New Year resolution ( I hate the way that sounds)

Little background -

Not sure if you can find them anywhere on here anymore or not, but I used to be an ultra runner. I ran 100 miles in 20 hours and 20 mins. That is where I need to get back to.

Somewhere around last year I had a lot of changes. Things like where I lived, one of those baby things, a job that requires me to travel and work weird hours, and well, apparently a LOT of excuses. That being said, it needs to stop. Hopefully I'll get back into a groove and won't need to type everything out and annoy everyone by posting it on Facebook, but until then. I'm going to hold myself accountable to do just that.

I'd like to get back to a point where I can go out and compete in a race, be it 5k, 10k, 50m 100m whatever. I want to look back at my old times and get them back in my sights.

So where am I now - As I type this, I've drank 2 beers, eaten more than I should have at dinner, and if there were cookies here, well, they'd be gone by now.  I weigh in now somewhere between 193-197 depending on the meal or poop I just had. My longest run over the past few months is no more than 10  -12 miles, except the one that I got lost around mile 8 for 4 miles, only to realize the smart thing to do was just turn around, so I ended up with 17 or so.

Now down get me wrong, being 197 lbs and having a few beers at night and stuffing your face, that's fine man, if that's what you want. I personally do not. Over the past few weeks I've looked at photos of me in the past 3 years and noticed little things like.. "hey that shirt I was wearing is pretty loose there" or "holy crap I took a picture of my watch because that was a PR!" and then realize it's 3 mins fast and 2 miles more than what I just ran.

I'm giving myself ONE day ( tomorrow) to relax, enjoy a big fat meal and a few drinks. Mainly because my wife and I had plans to do so for a while now. We might still run.

Fact is - it just needs to stop. No excuse, no reason, no bullshit. I've accomplished a LOT in my short 36 years on this planet. I've gone through some things that would have knocked others to the ground and left them there. I'm proud of that. I'm not going to wake up and hate the way I feel just because I'm eating like shit and not going out to run.

My job doesn't lend itself to eating great or working out the best, but it's not impossible. It's doable. Just need to find the rhythm. I've got some solid time off over the next month or so, where I can really put some work in and get myself in a groove. Once I find that groove I'll be fine. Though there are NO cheat days, there are NO off days, there are NO .."eh it's a holiday" days- I need to get back to doing what I love to do. Going to go hard on this one too, food will be strict, going to ditch all of the crap, candy, coffee ( yep) booze. See what happens.

So for now, all runs get logged in Strava. All days get a recap on here as to how my run was or why I didn't run. I've got a belt buckle out there somewhere to earn....